Finding the Right Balance

I'm going to go on a bit of a ramble so apologies ahead of time. Going into this field of work would come with its ups and downs, that I knew. What I didn't expect was to enter into this job field knowing next to nothing in this kind of economy. It ends up being way more than I can figure out. I often feel like I'm just floating, not knowing what to really do next.

This political climate that we are in has me feeling nervous and unsure of what I am really meant to do. To balance that, I make artwork. But with the way that social media is, I'm also expected to be my own boss, wearing multiple different hats to make my work even show up on people's social media feeds. I have to know how to make videos, know when to post said videos, know what people are interested in (even though most of the time I'm really drawing the things that I like and hope for the best), and all while still making time to do the art work. Plus, having a job outside of my artwork is its own can of worms that makes finding balance so difficult.

I try my best to figure it out by writing what I wanted to get done on a whiteboard but I find myself just covering that up with more notes or coupons for places that I'd like to go out to but never have the time to. It leaves me even more overwhelmed and then it goes back me making artwork or even worse, not making artwork at all because then I would have to post it. It becomes an endless cycle and its just all over the place. Hopefully from this little ramble it helps people understand where my head has been for a bit.

An oil pastel drawing that depicts a lemon with a leaf at the stem and a fat fuzzy bumblebee resting on it. The outside of the frame has some fake flowers. Drawn by me for my mother, who had a lemon/bumblebee theme for the dining room.